Yesterday wasn’t great. All our computer systems at work decided to go night-night…right around the busy part of the afternoon. No big deal, computers. It’s not as if we rely on your for everything.
Before this happened, I’d been working on the Headache To End All Headaches – the kind where you legitimately feel like something is going to explode inside of your skull. Let’s just say the computer thing didn’t help.
Mentally beaten to a mushy pulp, I pleaded with my supervisor to let me go home early. “Even 15 minutes,” I said, my brain pounding inside of my head. I was granted my 15 minutes of freedom, but was still hesitant to return home, where I faced the prospect of an unpleasant conversation. Nothing Earth-shattering, just a discussion I’d been avoiding. It was one of those deals where I’d built, built, built it up in my head for most of the afternoon – this is going to be the worst. thing. ever. – and by the time I walked in the door, I was a ball of anxiety. With an absolutely pounding head.
But then something funny happened. The thing I’d been avoiding turned out to be a non-issue. And despite the fact that this happens every. single. time., I’d somehow forgotten. I’d just completely forgotten that nothing is ever as bad as I make it out to be in my head. My little brain works itself into an absolute frenzy thinking about all the terrible possible outcomes of every scenario it’s a wonder there’s room up there for anything else. And thinking back on it now, I honestly can’t see why I’d gotten myself so worked up in the first place.